I am getting very anxious about our "big day" this week. I get to pee on a stick this week! It's crazy to think that we are about to go through everything again. Please pray for peace and safety of our baby. We know God will bless us with children in His time. We are praying that this time is His time!
PS as soon as we know you will know too!!!
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
God's Plans = Our Plans
The last year of my life has taught me the biggest lessons of my life. Sometimes God's plans are not our plans, and many times our plans are not God's plans.
Let me explain. We were not trying to get pregnant when we found out we were pregnant last summer. It just kinda... happened! Then we hopped on the God train and held on for the ride. When things turned out bad we were so mad at God for ruining our plans, when in fact that was His plan all along.
In the same way we were so certain that John's new job was going to change our lives. For the first time we would have cash inflow that was more than we could have imagined! We prayed and prayed and prayed that God would allow John this job. God said yes. Now that job is John's main source of anger and depression. He hates it. So our plans were not exactly what God had in mind; or maybe it was, because an excellent lesson has come out of that job. We now know money does not bring us happiness.
We are trying to focus the next step in our lives around God's plan. This is the first time that we have ever thought and planned this way in our marriage. For example, we have been finishing up the remodeling of our house. We had picked out a particular entertainment center for the living room. It is awesome! It has a fireplace in it and it is just perfect. A few nights ago John and I were laying in bed and he said, "Do you think we should spend that much on glorifying an idol?" I was floored! What??? You mean you don't think we should buy the one item we have been planning on for months?!?! At first, honestly I was kind of mad at him. I took a few days to realize what he meant. We have been planning on canceling our satellite service when our contract in up in November. Even though I had been looking at it as a way to save money, John had been realizing it is an idol in our life. We spend WAY too much time centered around our DVRed shows trying to "catch up." After a few days of prayer and asking God what He thought about me spending money on the perfect new entertainment center, the answer was so clear in my heart. There are way better things that we can do with that money. Then John mentioned today that he thought maybe we should sell the 42 inch tv and just have the 32 inch one in the living room. For the first time, I totally agreed!
Just about an hour ago, John dropped another bomb on me. He told me was was thinking we should sell his car and go to a single car. It would allow us to pay off a tremendous amount of our debt, and free up monthly funds to spend our money as God would have us spend our money. Again, I nearly fell on the floor when I read his email. I said there is probably no way we can make that work logistically. He said why.......? Umm... Uh.... well, I really didn't have an answer for him. So, tonight we are going to really sit down and talk about having a single car would look like for us and see if we can't make it work!
Whew, this ride is getting scarier and scarier as I take my trust out of my own hands and put it in the hands of the Creator whose blessings can exceed anything that I thought I could provide for myself. I actually feel like the "About us" section of our blog may have been foreshadowing what was about to happen in our lives!
"God, I am nervous about the things you are doing in our life and marriage. Yet, I am very excited to see the blessings that come from trusting you and allowing you to lead us where you want us to go. For the first time we are saying, where you lead us we will follow!"
I pray that God will speak wild crazy ideas into you and your family's hearts this week as well. Trust me when I say, if you don't listen the first time His voice will only get louder!
Let me explain. We were not trying to get pregnant when we found out we were pregnant last summer. It just kinda... happened! Then we hopped on the God train and held on for the ride. When things turned out bad we were so mad at God for ruining our plans, when in fact that was His plan all along.
In the same way we were so certain that John's new job was going to change our lives. For the first time we would have cash inflow that was more than we could have imagined! We prayed and prayed and prayed that God would allow John this job. God said yes. Now that job is John's main source of anger and depression. He hates it. So our plans were not exactly what God had in mind; or maybe it was, because an excellent lesson has come out of that job. We now know money does not bring us happiness.
We are trying to focus the next step in our lives around God's plan. This is the first time that we have ever thought and planned this way in our marriage. For example, we have been finishing up the remodeling of our house. We had picked out a particular entertainment center for the living room. It is awesome! It has a fireplace in it and it is just perfect. A few nights ago John and I were laying in bed and he said, "Do you think we should spend that much on glorifying an idol?" I was floored! What??? You mean you don't think we should buy the one item we have been planning on for months?!?! At first, honestly I was kind of mad at him. I took a few days to realize what he meant. We have been planning on canceling our satellite service when our contract in up in November. Even though I had been looking at it as a way to save money, John had been realizing it is an idol in our life. We spend WAY too much time centered around our DVRed shows trying to "catch up." After a few days of prayer and asking God what He thought about me spending money on the perfect new entertainment center, the answer was so clear in my heart. There are way better things that we can do with that money. Then John mentioned today that he thought maybe we should sell the 42 inch tv and just have the 32 inch one in the living room. For the first time, I totally agreed!
Just about an hour ago, John dropped another bomb on me. He told me was was thinking we should sell his car and go to a single car. It would allow us to pay off a tremendous amount of our debt, and free up monthly funds to spend our money as God would have us spend our money. Again, I nearly fell on the floor when I read his email. I said there is probably no way we can make that work logistically. He said why.......? Umm... Uh.... well, I really didn't have an answer for him. So, tonight we are going to really sit down and talk about having a single car would look like for us and see if we can't make it work!
Whew, this ride is getting scarier and scarier as I take my trust out of my own hands and put it in the hands of the Creator whose blessings can exceed anything that I thought I could provide for myself. I actually feel like the "About us" section of our blog may have been foreshadowing what was about to happen in our lives!
"God, I am nervous about the things you are doing in our life and marriage. Yet, I am very excited to see the blessings that come from trusting you and allowing you to lead us where you want us to go. For the first time we are saying, where you lead us we will follow!"
I pray that God will speak wild crazy ideas into you and your family's hearts this week as well. Trust me when I say, if you don't listen the first time His voice will only get louder!
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Friend, Babies, and Pasta!
Sunday night I went to spend some much needed "roommate" time. We still call each other roommates even though we haven't actually lived together for several years now! Our sweet Wyatt was born 5 weeks ago and we had not gotten to all be together since he left the hospital. Jaclyn and I meet and rode together and then we headed over to Laura's house bearing dinner!
When we got there we got to see this sweet baby boy!
So we held him....
When we got there we got to see this sweet baby boy!
So we held him....
And held him....
And held him some more!!!!
It was sooooo wonderful to get to spend such precious time together without any interruptions or men... who usually are the interuptions. :) It's crazy how we can go weeks without seeing each other but when we are together its like we still lve together! Man, how I missed this wonderful ladies and am soooo glad to have them back on the same continent!
Love you B.B.s!
And held him some more!!!!
It was sooooo wonderful to get to spend such precious time together without any interruptions or men... who usually are the interuptions. :) It's crazy how we can go weeks without seeing each other but when we are together its like we still lve together! Man, how I missed this wonderful ladies and am soooo glad to have them back on the same continent!
Love you B.B.s!
Monday, October 11, 2010
Pregnancy
So in a week we will be going for Gold! The funniest part of really calculating and getting ready to get pregnant is the way they calculate your due date. It starts on the first day of your last menstrual . So according to calculations I am already 5 days pregnant! Ha! Please keep us in your prayers over the next few weeks, and months for that matter. We are super excited and nervous at the same time! We are praying for God's blessings and healing.
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
St. Louis Camera 1
This past weekend John and I took off to spend a few days in St. Louis. We both took off Friday and Monday so that we could have an extended weekend! We left Friday morning and went to a baseball game Friday night. This post will be about the pictures from Camera one. For those who know us well, you know we took our "good" camera and the point and shoot camera that John trusts me to carry in my purse since I have lost 2 very nice point and shoot cameras since we have been married! :) These are from my crummy camera! 
More to come once I get the other camera! :)
We seriously ate $40 worth of food at the game! Then we bought ice cream bars at the hotel gift shop and spend the rest of the night being lazy.
Then Saturday we slept in and tried to go on a romantic paddleboat ride that I had planned. You see, John sanded through his wedding band while sanding the hardwood floors. So, I ordered him a new one and was going to surprise him on Saturday and give him his new ring. But then apparently everyone and their dog was also trying to spend the day at Forrest Park. I am not kidding you it is a HUGE park and we could not find a spot to park for 20 minutes. So we gave up and went to Union Station. I am not not a good secret keeper so his ring was burning a hole in my pocket!!!
We shopped around a bit and bought 3.5 lbs of fudge... yes 3.5 lbs! That is about 9 lbs of fat on your butt! Then we went and walked around the arch. John found it funny to take pictures of me taking pictures! Ha!
It was really sweet. The sun was starting to set over the river by the arch. We were walking around holding hands and taking pictures. Me, being the intellegent being that I am, forgot the ring in my other pants... so seriously perfect moment to give John his ring and I forgot it!
It was really sweet. The sun was starting to set over the river by the arch. We were walking around holding hands and taking pictures. Me, being the intellegent being that I am, forgot the ring in my other pants... so seriously perfect moment to give John his ring and I forgot it!
Sunday we went to a Rams game. Our original seats were so high that I was seriously getting ill. So I scouted us some better seats during the first quarter and we claimed them for the rest of the game. Which turned out nicely. We got expensive seats for the price of the nose-bleeds!
More to come once I get the other camera! :)
Thursday, September 23, 2010
Big Decisions
I am THE WORST decision maker! Plus my husband doesn't help much either. We have been trying to plan out when we are ready to "try again." There are just a few complications that are prompting us to wait another month or two.
First of all, we have managed to tear up EVERY room in our house at the exact same time. Currently our nursery needs to have the closet re-done, our bedroom needs the closet done and new base-boards put back on, and a door to our master bathroom. Our hallway and living room need the floors sanded and stained plus the ceilings painted and new trim done. Our kitchen, it's pretty much ok right now. Our office... well... I pulled up the carpet under the impression that it would have hardwood floors under it just like every other room in the house. Come to find out there is old nasty linoleum glued to the sub floor... no hardwood :( So, we are trying to take up the linoleum so we can build the walk in pantry and closet and lay new carpet. Really it sounds like a ton of work, but in reality we are just looking at a few weeks of dedication.
On top of our house, I have about 10 pounds to lose before I feel like I'm where I should be before we get pregnant. So I signed up for another half-marathon in order to shed the last few pounds. In April training for the half-marathon helped me shed about 12 pounds. I have actually kept it off which makes me very proud of myself. So we will probably be setting our baby making date for around Thanksgiving. Whoo-Hoo! I am so excited and anxious to try again!
In the mean time I am getting to spend sweet time with my BFF Laura and her new sweet baby boy. My sister-in-law will also be giving birth to our first niece at the end of the year. So that will have to hold over my baby fix for a few more months.
In case you were in need of a baby fix today hopefully this will hold you over too! :)
First of all, we have managed to tear up EVERY room in our house at the exact same time. Currently our nursery needs to have the closet re-done, our bedroom needs the closet done and new base-boards put back on, and a door to our master bathroom. Our hallway and living room need the floors sanded and stained plus the ceilings painted and new trim done. Our kitchen, it's pretty much ok right now. Our office... well... I pulled up the carpet under the impression that it would have hardwood floors under it just like every other room in the house. Come to find out there is old nasty linoleum glued to the sub floor... no hardwood :( So, we are trying to take up the linoleum so we can build the walk in pantry and closet and lay new carpet. Really it sounds like a ton of work, but in reality we are just looking at a few weeks of dedication.
On top of our house, I have about 10 pounds to lose before I feel like I'm where I should be before we get pregnant. So I signed up for another half-marathon in order to shed the last few pounds. In April training for the half-marathon helped me shed about 12 pounds. I have actually kept it off which makes me very proud of myself. So we will probably be setting our baby making date for around Thanksgiving. Whoo-Hoo! I am so excited and anxious to try again!
In the mean time I am getting to spend sweet time with my BFF Laura and her new sweet baby boy. My sister-in-law will also be giving birth to our first niece at the end of the year. So that will have to hold over my baby fix for a few more months.
In case you were in need of a baby fix today hopefully this will hold you over too! :)
Friday, September 10, 2010
The Conclusion.
We have been evaluated by three different doctors who have literally ran nearly a hundred tests on John and I, and our fertility doctor gave us her conclusion yesterday.
We just have bad luck.....
I am not sure that I feel any better, however, I am confident in her abilities. It may be that all along God was just waiting on us to trust Him with our pregnancies. To lay our cares down at HIS feet rather than run around looking into science for all of our answers. So we have decided that we are on God's time, (and the timing of finishing our hardwood floors!) and that He is faithful and will bless us with children when He is good and ready.
Please be praying for us as we are looking at the timing for our next pregnancy. We are both somewhat ready to try right away, but we have a few details that need to be worked out first.
:) Love you guys!
We just have bad luck.....
I am not sure that I feel any better, however, I am confident in her abilities. It may be that all along God was just waiting on us to trust Him with our pregnancies. To lay our cares down at HIS feet rather than run around looking into science for all of our answers. So we have decided that we are on God's time, (and the timing of finishing our hardwood floors!) and that He is faithful and will bless us with children when He is good and ready.
Please be praying for us as we are looking at the timing for our next pregnancy. We are both somewhat ready to try right away, but we have a few details that need to be worked out first.
:) Love you guys!
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